I can't lie. During the holiday time I was overly obsessing about this connection. Not because I've never felt immediate chemistry with someone, but the intensity and it being right was something brand new. It was as if he's always been there, which confused me because remember, I didn't even like him at first.
Also, my first thought upon recognition was not "I wonder if he minds me being on top." I'm a Taurus and Scorpio rising, so sex is always on my mind. Seeing someone for more than just surface level satisfaction...WHO WAS I BECOMING?
Not quite clear how the daily walks began, but somehow we found ourselves at work walking and talking. We began to remove the layers of ourselves that no one else could reach in a short amount of time. Essentially, it was our world and everyone else was orbiting around it. Looking back, so much happened within one month's time, that usually takes people years to develop. I knew that I could trust him with my whole heart and all of my secrets. I also knew he was brought along my path so they could be revealed to someone in order for me to fully release. In fact, we were that for each other.
Some time in mid-January we went to a museum event because my candle guardian was there vending. It was close to time for a full moon, and I needed some candles. It was around this time that we actually saved each other's numbers in our phones. Yes, took us a month to do something so simple.
Although we left work at the same time, I arrived at the venue first. NERVOUS WRECK is the best thing to describe who I fought while waiting in the parking lot. That trick had to go. By the time he got there, Cool Calm and Collected were my homegirls and we all went inside to enjoy the night. I won't go into everything that happened because this is a journal not a book, however here are a few important highlights.
We played. So this museum has areas for children, and well...we became just that. The thing is, he's a very serious type. To feel comfortable playing games and letting go was a huge step. I was well aware of this and appreciate him for it.
We created art. There is a wall where you can turn lights into any image. I started creating a flower and he darkened all of the lights around my flower, even closing out other people's art, just so my flower could stand out.
We experience. There was no forcing of an agenda, just experiencing everything around us. The vendors, people and music. Even each other in this setting. No, nothing physically between us happened in the museum, but sometimes spiritual is more important and sufficient.
About two hours was all we could take of the event. Neither of us are huge crowds people, which is a good thing when someone raises the time to go radio signal. Time to go meant time to leave the building but not each other. So...of course we walked and talk. I can't remember how it happened, but somehow we got on the conversation of energy and I said, "I actively block your energy because I feel it's a violation." This kind of threw him off. It wasn't because I said it. He was more taken aback from the fact that I had to actively block him.
"Yeah you may want to do that because I can have a crazy affect on people around me."
"I think it's time to let the force field down for some reason."
"You sure?"
"Yes."
Without any form of physical touch. Just like that, my shields were disengaged. The gateway was opened, and our two energies began melding into one.
Also, my first thought upon recognition was not "I wonder if he minds me being on top." I'm a Taurus and Scorpio rising, so sex is always on my mind. Seeing someone for more than just surface level satisfaction...WHO WAS I BECOMING?
Not quite clear how the daily walks began, but somehow we found ourselves at work walking and talking. We began to remove the layers of ourselves that no one else could reach in a short amount of time. Essentially, it was our world and everyone else was orbiting around it. Looking back, so much happened within one month's time, that usually takes people years to develop. I knew that I could trust him with my whole heart and all of my secrets. I also knew he was brought along my path so they could be revealed to someone in order for me to fully release. In fact, we were that for each other.
Some time in mid-January we went to a museum event because my candle guardian was there vending. It was close to time for a full moon, and I needed some candles. It was around this time that we actually saved each other's numbers in our phones. Yes, took us a month to do something so simple.
Although we left work at the same time, I arrived at the venue first. NERVOUS WRECK is the best thing to describe who I fought while waiting in the parking lot. That trick had to go. By the time he got there, Cool Calm and Collected were my homegirls and we all went inside to enjoy the night. I won't go into everything that happened because this is a journal not a book, however here are a few important highlights.
We played. So this museum has areas for children, and well...we became just that. The thing is, he's a very serious type. To feel comfortable playing games and letting go was a huge step. I was well aware of this and appreciate him for it.
We created art. There is a wall where you can turn lights into any image. I started creating a flower and he darkened all of the lights around my flower, even closing out other people's art, just so my flower could stand out.
We experience. There was no forcing of an agenda, just experiencing everything around us. The vendors, people and music. Even each other in this setting. No, nothing physically between us happened in the museum, but sometimes spiritual is more important and sufficient.
About two hours was all we could take of the event. Neither of us are huge crowds people, which is a good thing when someone raises the time to go radio signal. Time to go meant time to leave the building but not each other. So...of course we walked and talk. I can't remember how it happened, but somehow we got on the conversation of energy and I said, "I actively block your energy because I feel it's a violation." This kind of threw him off. It wasn't because I said it. He was more taken aback from the fact that I had to actively block him.
"Yeah you may want to do that because I can have a crazy affect on people around me."
"I think it's time to let the force field down for some reason."
"You sure?"
"Yes."
Without any form of physical touch. Just like that, my shields were disengaged. The gateway was opened, and our two energies began melding into one.
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